EVEN SO I THEN SHALL LIVE:
Over the last 14 years it seems every time God has blessed my ministry that blessing has been followed by strong attempts to destroy its value and certainly its continuation as Satan arranged my eviction. Add to that the devastating effects of my colon surgery in Kansas, the overwhelming power of the major clinical depression it birthed, I often struggle to find a sense of safety, even a sense of any value in my past life, though I know and feel God's approval.
The historical facts remain and speak for themselves. And, God has reconnected me to some wonderful fruits of the ministry prior to January 1998 (and a few after). So I know the struggles of rebuilding life after depression are false, illusions, but none-the-less, as one who now has lived walking with God in and through a medically based depression, the question so often comes up, "Now what?"
Add to that the fact I am beginning what will be the last chapters of my physical life it is time to reaffirm, "Even so, I then shall live ..." This song speaks of so much which has marked the path of walking humbly with my God in my yesterdays. That same description must mark the future as well.
If you do not listen to the video, please at least take the time to read the words. Offer up a little prayer for me.
I THEN SHALL LIVE
I then shall live as one who's been forgiven.
I'll walk with joy to know my debts are paid.
I know my name is clear before my Father;
I am His child and I am not afraid.
So, greatly pardoned, I'll forgive my brother;
The law of love I gladly will obey.
I then shall live as one who's learned compassion.
I've been so loved, that I'll risk loving too.
I know how fear builds walls instead of bridges;
I'll dare to see another's point of view.
And when relationships demand commitment,
Then I'll be there to care and follow through.
Your Kingdom come around and through and in me;
Your power and glory, let them shine through me.
Your Hallowed Name, O may I bear with honor,
And may Your living Kingdom come in me.
The Bread of Life, O may I share with honor,
And may You feed a hungry world through me.